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Growing Older Together

Some people see themselves married with a family. Some people picture themselves sitting on the beach by themselves completely content with their lives. I used to think I had it all figured out. But after seeing and experiencing some things firsthand, I’ve come to realize that I’ve idealized a lot of things. Everything has been turned on its side and I don’t see life the same way anymore. It’s always been more complicated than I ever anticipated. The only thing I am sure of is that I want to make sure I wind up with certain people at my side. You know who you are. Life without you guys would be empty and pointless. Let’s grow old together, ok? Well at the very least we should try.

it’s on

every since i left manila, i’ve felt like i put my life on hold. i did this by choice. there were many many moments in the past months when i regretted my decision to take a year off. but now that it’s almost up i can’t help but feel like i’ve made the best decision of my life. 

for the first time since the start of senior year, i feel excited about something. there’s this burning sensation at the pit of my stomach. i am hungry, really hungry to do something with my life. i want to study. i want to push myself. i want. i want. i want.

this desire is something that has been lacking since i got everything that i set myself to in college. if anything, the past year has given me perspective. and i am so excited.

i can hardly wait to get my life back on track.